Life 101 can I have it all?

I've been doing a lot of reflecting lately. There is an entrapenuer inside dying to get her hands on a project. Lead something...anything. The creative and managing gifts within me are screaming to get out.

......on the other hand.

I have this new life. I have a small boy that needs me. I have a wonderful husband. I am enjoying and loving this. I absolutely love this farm an although its lots of work, It is sooo rewarding and the lessons of life are too numerous to count. Each time a trim a plant, or plant a seed...I see God. I see His hand in my life as the master gardener. I know that sounds cliche' but it is soooo true.

This truly simple life has a glory all of it own. The work does not gain me prestige...but I can see the reward in the character it is working in me...and the character he's working in my son. Yes, he's only 2..but these are the building blocks of his life. This is my only chance to teach him. WoW! It doesn't get more important than that. He is only loaned to me.

Please pray that I will embrace that. In all the missions and Countries and experiences God gave me as a single person I longed for one thing....a family. Now I have it.
That just shows how fickle I can be. ...or am I a product of my culture who says you can "Have it all".

Its probly not true. At least not at this stage.

So I need to embrace what God has given me. Not a mission. Not a "job". But the ministry of raising my son to Love God and recognize that God should be the center of all that he does. And discover gods plan for his life.